SonataOfImperfection

Something about those endless droplets Or that shining gleam where a damp street and light met Something about the car wipers swiping by Or how when tears fall in the rain no one knows you cried Something about the puddles that are left And the continuous thoughts and my deep breaths Something about the wetness on the grass Or the sound the rain makes as it rains down fast Something about the grey clouds up above Have got me wondering what about this do I love I love the calmness of the night I love the stillness everywhere I love the peeking moonlight And moments I find peace there I love the sound it makes on my little roof I love the runni

There are times when I'm confused And I don't know which paths to take My kindness gets used And I realize it all too late There are times when I notice Exactly where I should go And though I may not know this But it's the roads that led me home There are times when I am angered And I see what I can't change Or that my actions were absurd And I left thought out of range There are times I should just listen Before I thought to react But my emotions got the best of me And I got mocked and laughed at There are times where I was sad And I couldn't lift my head Looking back at what used to be bad I wish I had just gone to bed But there are now tim

I used to think I knew what love was I used to think I knew it like the back of my hand I used to think these things happened because I was part of someone else's else's plan I used to think I had it perfect I used to think I had it all But there are times where it wasn't worth it And the deeper and deeper I would fall You used to say you loved me, now you don't Used to say you'd be there for me but now you won't You used say welcome home baby Now I sit alone You used you to say you loved me but now its gone And so I've been waiting, waiting such a long time Just to let someone out there, come and find This heart of mine. And  I counted every

When I found the one I found love in a difficult time When I found the one Who'd change my life and change my mind Everything I had thought of love led me blind And inside that empty mess an old me left behind I found my sun My moonlight My carefree in-betweens My loveless nights And a love bursting at the seams My madness my tradgedy My beautiful shade of blue I realised when we came together There was nothing I could do It had to be you And it had to be then And I fell for you Swiftly like I'm free fallin I had never known the sweetness In sickness or good health Or how you got my my heart And placed it on your shelf Next to pictures of

Im tired Of acting like everything is okay Tired of lies beatings and being betrayed I'm tired of cheating myself out of anything good Not because I didnt want it but because i thought i should I'm tired of holding these thoughts inside Because there's no where to run as I lose sleep tonight. I'm tired of cleaning up brand new wounds, Cause as soon as one heals I've recieved another too soon. I'm tired of trying to act like im fine Cant you see it or feel it, just tell me alright That it's okay to cry maybe it's okay to laugh Even though my life is nothing to laugh at That I'm not crazy no you just cant tell Behind a closed door I've kept t

I left you standing over there I left my dreams with you too I walked away without a care No wait that is really not true You see I cared too much to hurt you I cared if you would cry But I was scared of what I could do And I had wanted to die I couldn't stand the memories I couldn't stand what I betrayed I couldn't see what you saw in me And my own heart was slayed I dug the knife in so deep I couldn't pull it out I've lost so many moments of sleep And I gave in to so much doubt I carelessly took all of the blame I carelessly crashed into the ground And sat there and cursed my own name And cried without a sound I didn't want you to see my pa

Because I used to be someone you cared for Because I used to be someone you loved Because I used to be the only one for you Because I used to be the one you held above. Above termoil grief Above madness sadness and cheap police Above policy and protocol Like a cocktail bomb that's felt it all Above chilvery and shimmer less nights Of winning or losing battles wrongs and rights Above midnight calls above candlit dinners Above happy days I'm shining I glimmer Above the countless in-betweens Above the times I never knew what you mean Above seeing me in lonely dreams Above not knowing my silent screams Above cupped ears and a hole in my heart Ab

I noticed I needed to write more Not because of my problems but because I adore The feeling of my pen dipping in An after affect of reading again And again and again my poems Write of old loves new ones and the stolen I'm constantly writing in my sleep And I wake just to write a new one each week My pen bleeds new words that I can't speak But it just comes so damned easily It's like I write and I write out of my soul I write of so many things that I can't control I do my best in every word that leaves my lips From my tender hugs or my meanings in this I write down almost every single night Between the shades of grey or the pale moonlight I wr

I've been laughed at but not laughed with I've been left out with childish shit I've been cursed at but not cursed on I've been left alone until the break of dawn I've been cheated Broke down and beaten I've been left alone for just way too long And then I've lost it all yes I lost it all I don't think you understand it in the words that I say But my life just keeps on going and going this way I don't think you'll get it no I don't think you do Because none of this has ever happened to you Please don't get sad oh please don't cry I wonder why I screamed why why God just why Because I used to have troubles and they hurt like hell But you see

I needed a ride I needed to sigh I needed a fight inside I needed to lie I needed to give in I needed to give up I needed to spill it all From inside life's cup I needed to get dressed I needed to shower And not dwell in this mess Hour after hour I needed some control And not to be controlled I needed to unfold Everything I had fold I needed to tell truth But I couldn't be true I needed some kind of youth To become unglued I needed to be open But I often stayed shut And it wasn't helping And I'd almost give up I needed to learn love When I wasn't capable But my thoughts above Made me unable To even try it once To pull the trigger And though I

"Nightmares" These are the reasons I don't sleep You honestly wouldn't understand No matter which way I'd ever try to keep My dreams positive they fall into negative land I have nightmares so violent so vivid in color I've seen everyone I know die like no other It's frightening to me and disturbing to hear But I never want you to imagine this kind of fear It's the reason I shake with all of my might It's the reason tears fall in my sleep filled nights I lose everyone and I lose everything There's no one to save me cause they've all got broken wings I have nightmares in which I feel touch sight taste and sound These visions of de

"I was the thief I was running from" I used to think I was lucky And that I had it all Yet everytime I felt ugly Deeper in despair I would fall I used to beat myself up often I watched blood drip from these hands I used to think of coffins In ways you couldnt understand I used to think I could fly away But I always had broken wings So I'd hide and run another day While I was ripping at the seams I don't think, think you know me I don't think you should see what I see I don't think you want to go there Because it's a nightmare, not a dream I used to count the steps I had taken My feet blistered and so sore There were so many things I needed An